back to hometown 2day nite~

2day at kk non-stop raining..im used to wake up at 7am,but the raining day makes me wanna lai chuang for more 5 minutes..really so comfortable with the blanket..hehe..really hope dear hug me tat time...sure will be so warm..haha~

last nite,im dreaming,dream about dear says he will coming back to sabah 2day afternoon oh...so happy,when i wake up and looking around,baru i know im dreaming..the feeling like tis,so bad..keke...got another time,i also dreaming,i dreamed he ask me wake up,i dont trust he is coming back already,so i dont want to open my eyes,then when i hear his voice,i realize,is really his voice..when i open my eyes,there is nobody bside me..the room are dark....with the light outside.. and the sounds of the insects..really felt so lonely....feeling like tis so bad...really bad...

2day whole day raining,so cold in office..makes me so sleepy..haiz..if sleeping during raining day,very comfortable..

then nth to do at office,keep looking for online fashion shop...wanna buy clothes..tis is wat i do when im free..if not,then watch movie or drama..wat a sux life!im really tired with the life like now..no happiness,no surprises..everyday just goes plain like tat..really damn bored...so i owez sleep early lo..bout 9pm sumthing i sleep,until 7am..bout 10 hours to sleep hor?but still sleepy o..

2 more weeks...i can meet my dear dear oledi..really miss him so much..im really not so happy with keep missin each other like tis..suffering...mayb missing someone is something sweet,but if time goes long,no more sweet,just心痛.haiz.....nobody knows my feeling..my mood 2day is like 2day's weather..raining day......not sunny day...think back,i have so long never feel how is the sunny day!how happy is it...everyday worry,everyday missing,everyday thinking...really hope i can rest for one day to not think anything..i dont want to think any problem..if can stop for one day,tats good...but i know its impossible.the brain keep thinking,the heart keep pain...

anyway,just happy..frens are encouraging me..and he gaves me力量to continue my bored and meaningless life. although are bored and meaningless,but still have his messages,and calls,let my life bcome a bit colorful..yeah..i just need sumbody support me..

tatz it!