can i put this as private? (my 3 best fren in my whole life)

Really hope i can put this in private method..i dont hope anyone read bout this..but then,im really hope i can write down my feelings. and it is not to use for showing to any peoples. Hope anyone read bout this just kept as private or secret..this is my privacy as well..although somebody think these matters is meaningless at all and it is no need to keep as private,but for me these matter is really meaningful for me,and i dont hope have anything changed in my life now.so just keep this as private..and it is confidential~ hope everyone can respect for wat had i write here~

I had 3 best fren that i think they treat me really good as fren in my life..I dont want to mention their name,but i believe,those who really knows me,they will know who is tat 3 person..

Y i suddenly wanna write bout them?its bcuz 4 of us already been long time never meet and also contact..In these years,i keep change phone and also phone number,but until now,their numbers and name is still in my phonebook.This year birthday,people tat i hope most to greet me was 3 of them..but,unfortunately,i just get greeting from one of them..Felt a bit upset..I still remember my last year 20th birthday celebration,they came for my birthday,although they are not stay too long,but i still felt very happy.I still remember their hugs tat nite..I called her as 'S',i knew her and become best fren with her since we are Form 1..She is really my best best best fren in my life...but now,we had less contact already..and didnt meet up..

I dont know izzit i done something sorry to them?so they dont wanna find me?and didnt treat me as fren?Until now i dont dare to find them out,is bcuz i really dont know they are really willing to out with me,or if i asked them out for meet,will they feeling happy or just feeling annoying inside their hearts?

ah yap, you always ask me out,i always reject,bcuz im really dont hope to see anyone of them,bcuz i really dont know if i am done something wrong and makes them unhappy,so better i dont let them saw me,then everything will be ok...and i really dont know how to face them.i also dont want have some people are busybody to trying let 4 of us meet...so i just keep silence, and just reject everything..

I still remember when we still living in the same house,our relation is really good..4 of us,going out to shopping,we are holding each other elbow and walked happily..but now,i already separate with them.although i dont know whether they own still having contact each other or not.we cried 2gether,laugh 2gether,and work hard with our studies.They are really apart in my life when i needed fren most..

I tried to contact them sometimes,but i felt they seems dont really like to sms with me...i hope i am think too much..but then i also dont need anybody to take action after read my blog...im just feel want to write down my exact feeling here.I write down here,im not want 3 of them saw my blog..i hope they wont saw this blog and just go with their own life..im just want to telling everybody tat they are really my true fren until forever..i wont forget them even one day they had forgotten me..because they walk with me the path that i needed them the most..