30.10.08晚上

我一直等，一直等。。

最后还是等不到听听他的声音。。

累了。。

这几天都没有睡好。。

还是早点水比较好。。

睡咯。。

晚安。。

29.10.08

我回到家的时候，看见爸的车没有在了，回了根地咬。。突然觉得想哭。。因为，我又要回到一个人了。。我打开家门。。看见家里静静的，暗暗的。。那种心情真的是满难过的。

我又是一个人了。听见风扇的声音，雨水的声音，邻居说话的声音，blackie跑路的声音，洗衣机的声音。。全部的声音都能够听到一清二除。。真的好孤单哦。。

明天又是新的一天。。又是有希望的一天。。真的不懂能不能够忍住像现在的日子。会想念家人。。一个人在家的时候，就是和blackie说话，让它和我撒娇。。如果没有它陪我，真的不知道这样的日子要怎么过。。

每一天晚上，虽然不是很累，但是还是很早睡。。因为，时间过的很慢。睡了的话，很快的，又到了明天。一天一天这样的过去。。

有点想回家。。回去一个充满欢笑又温暖的家。。一个人睡在一间家，忠是觉得风扇开的太大，很冷。。被要盖到头上才觉得舒服。。好像家喔。。

；D 虽然没什么，但是现在我觉得一家人整整齐齐的在一起，真的会觉得好幸福。。
明天会更好吗？希望是这样。。

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很久没有三姐弟一起拍一张照片。。我们像不像？？哈哈！我我会试试找看有没有我们三个小时候的照片给你们笑以下～！哈哈！

back to hometown 2day nite~

2day at kk non-stop raining..im used to wake up at 7am,but the raining day makes me wanna lai chuang for more 5 minutes..really so comfortable with the blanket..hehe..really hope dear hug me tat time...sure will be so warm..haha~

last nite,im dreaming,dream about dear says he will coming back to sabah 2day afternoon oh...so happy,when i wake up and looking around,baru i know im dreaming..the feeling like tis,so bad..keke...got another time,i also dreaming,i dreamed he ask me wake up,i dont trust he is coming back already,so i dont want to open my eyes,then when i hear his voice,i realize,is really his voice..when i open my eyes,there is nobody bside me..the room are dark....with the light outside.. and the sounds of the insects..really felt so lonely....feeling like tis so bad...really bad...

2day whole day raining,so cold in office..makes me so sleepy..haiz..if sleeping during raining day,very comfortable..

then nth to do at office,keep looking for online fashion shop...wanna buy clothes..tis is wat i do when im free..if not,then watch movie or drama..wat a sux life!im really tired with the life like now..no happiness,no surprises..everyday just goes plain like tat..really damn bored...so i owez sleep early lo..bout 9pm sumthing i sleep,until 7am..bout 10 hours to sleep hor?but still sleepy o..

2 more weeks...i can meet my dear dear oledi..really miss him so much..im really not so happy with keep missin each other like tis..suffering...mayb missing someone is something sweet,but if time goes long,no more sweet,just心痛.haiz.....nobody knows my feeling..my mood 2day is like 2day's weather..raining day......not sunny day...think back,i have so long never feel how is the sunny day!how happy is it...everyday worry,everyday missing,everyday thinking...really hope i can rest for one day to not think anything..i dont want to think any problem..if can stop for one day,tats good...but i know its impossible.the brain keep thinking,the heart keep pain...

anyway,just happy..frens are encouraging me..and he gaves me力量to continue my bored and meaningless life. although are bored and meaningless,but still have his messages,and calls,let my life bcome a bit colorful..yeah..i just need sumbody support me..

tatz it!