不是很开心。。

是心淡了吗？为什么我的心总是没什么感觉。。？

很想要你回来。。真的。。

我不喜欢现在这样。。。我不喜欢一个人孤孤独独的。。做什么都是一个人。。。都是在看别人甜蜜。我宁愿在家一个人玩电脑。真的很讨厌现在！

如果你可以回来，真好~~


~圣诞快乐~
~我也要快乐~

被离弃了。。

被离弃的人～

心情是怎样的呢？

有些人事不可能明白～

.....

will be one year old....yah....one year old~

miss

真心朋友～

这几天，我妹和她朋友下来亚比玩，住在我家。。他们很好笑。。玩的很开心～我看到他们，让我想起我读书时候的朋友。。也是玩得很傻～ 每天都脸带笑容～ 真的是觉得很开心～

要找到一个真心的朋友真是不容易～ 尤其是出来社会过后。。TRUE FREN真是很难找到。。在现实的世界里，出现很多自私的人。。所以。。很少人会真心的对待一个人～

人需要朋友，我也是一样，担不要虚假的朋友。我有一个对我中心又真心的朋友。。那就是我的小BLACKIE～ 有时后想想，和狗相处，觉得更开心，更自在～ 比起现实的人类～ 我不否认我自己不现实不自私～ 我承认～

人越长大，越多事情烦恼，越多难题。。真是很想回到读中学的时候。朋友多多，烦恼少少。。根本什么都不许要烦恼～只是读好我的书，就可以了。。不像现在，什么事情都要自己烦恼，自己安排～

自从我看标竿人生（没有看完，嘿嘿！〕，真的是有想到，到底我们是为了什么而活？为了赚满满的钱吗？人一定会死，钱能带着进棺材吗？现在的社会，让每个人都认为金钱非常重要～ 金钱能够让一个人的生活变好。不许要在这个现实的世界里那么辛苦的奋斗～比任何人都轻松的多。。 要什么有什么～

真的是很讨厌现在的世界～ 现在的世界，都让人类慢慢的失去真心朋友。。 以前单纯的我们，在读书的时候，什么都不必烦。。真的很好～ 幸好我有珍惜到和我每一个好朋友相处的时间～

直到现在，我找到真心爱我的人。。没有虚假～ 没有谎言～ 这就是我要求的。就那么容易～ 富有并不是那么重要～ 这是我的想法～ 我觉得，用金钱和财物带来的爱情，我不能够分辨是真心对待那男人，还是真心对待他WALLET里厚厚的钱或金卡～

谢谢爱我的'你'～ 老公～

my grandmother

she is just arrived at my house with my grandfather,they are coming for janet's brother wedding.

since she step into my house,she never stop from keep moving~she clean my house, mop it, she is in good motive,but sometimes mayb it is really annoying and making trouble!OMG~even she mop the floor,also need more than half hour...even the kitchen is small,just about 5x8 squarefeet's area can mop,she still can mop until minutes and minutes~and minutes~ huh!!! and my blackie i put him outside balkoni,i didnt locked him in the cage,but my grandmother keep opening the door and keep making blackie come inside the house..fuuuhhh!!really makes me tiring!ok,i seen her keep wanna go in and out from the balkoni,so i put blackie in the cage...but she keep going in and out without doing anything,then blackie keep barking and barking~ omg~ this really drives me crazy!

mayb im bad about talking my grandmother,but......she can sit properly or just like my grandfather to lying there for a nap~ y must make some sounds to let other ppl realize that she is really there? ouuuu!

and keep asking something that i dont know and gosh!!! i dont wanna talk more~!

tats all lah~

sorry for complaining bout my own grandmother

can i put this as private? (my 3 best fren in my whole life)

Really hope i can put this in private method..i dont hope anyone read bout this..but then,im really hope i can write down my feelings. and it is not to use for showing to any peoples. Hope anyone read bout this just kept as private or secret..this is my privacy as well..although somebody think these matters is meaningless at all and it is no need to keep as private,but for me these matter is really meaningful for me,and i dont hope have anything changed in my life now.so just keep this as private..and it is confidential~ hope everyone can respect for wat had i write here~

I had 3 best fren that i think they treat me really good as fren in my life..I dont want to mention their name,but i believe,those who really knows me,they will know who is tat 3 person..

Y i suddenly wanna write bout them?its bcuz 4 of us already been long time never meet and also contact..In these years,i keep change phone and also phone number,but until now,their numbers and name is still in my phonebook.This year birthday,people tat i hope most to greet me was 3 of them..but,unfortunately,i just get greeting from one of them..Felt a bit upset..I still remember my last year 20th birthday celebration,they came for my birthday,although they are not stay too long,but i still felt very happy.I still remember their hugs tat nite..I called her as 'S',i knew her and become best fren with her since we are Form 1..She is really my best best best fren in my life...but now,we had less contact already..and didnt meet up..

I dont know izzit i done something sorry to them?so they dont wanna find me?and didnt treat me as fren?Until now i dont dare to find them out,is bcuz i really dont know they are really willing to out with me,or if i asked them out for meet,will they feeling happy or just feeling annoying inside their hearts?

ah yap, you always ask me out,i always reject,bcuz im really dont hope to see anyone of them,bcuz i really dont know if i am done something wrong and makes them unhappy,so better i dont let them saw me,then everything will be ok...and i really dont know how to face them.i also dont want have some people are busybody to trying let 4 of us meet...so i just keep silence, and just reject everything..

I still remember when we still living in the same house,our relation is really good..4 of us,going out to shopping,we are holding each other elbow and walked happily..but now,i already separate with them.although i dont know whether they own still having contact each other or not.we cried 2gether,laugh 2gether,and work hard with our studies.They are really apart in my life when i needed fren most..

I tried to contact them sometimes,but i felt they seems dont really like to sms with me...i hope i am think too much..but then i also dont need anybody to take action after read my blog...im just feel want to write down my exact feeling here.I write down here,im not want 3 of them saw my blog..i hope they wont saw this blog and just go with their own life..im just want to telling everybody tat they are really my true fren until forever..i wont forget them even one day they had forgotten me..because they walk with me the path that i needed them the most..

christmas is coming~

ho ho ho~ MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
christmas is coming~ cannot wait to wear pretty pretty leh...haha..~
8/12 jeannette brother is having a wedding dinner at putera..fhhoohh~ oso can wear pretty pretty leh....haha...so im trying to get slim now...i wanna slim slim slim!~ haha! i love this month....this month i feel happy.. bcuz had a wedding dinner and my big families can gathering,and meet each other...then christmas i can meet my old old frens..frens when im kiddy~ haha~ like yaw yaw,stef,maggie,christina,kent kent and many more my church frens...so happy~~ b4 when we r still small,i , yaw yaw , kent2, and stef owez hide in meeting room to talk, play and go to buy bun and eat~ so happy......happy with our life and enjoy really much! tat time..... but now,we are all busy with our new life..and leaving the enjoy with no any trouble tat time... when human is growing bigger, more trouble have to face.. haiz.....

im waiting for jeannette's bro wedding nite and christmas for this month. next month,i will be waiting for my dear for coming back on 18 jan 2009!! im sure he is miss here so much...and miss his friends and also miss our blackie!!!hehe...but 26 jan i will going to TAIWAN!!!!!!syok ler..haha....i wanna take many many photos and also buy many many things~ haha.....i already bought my new clothes for christmas and cny,so from now on i wanna earn & save my money for taiwan travelling!~ haha....

this 2 months are full of excite,so i dont feel boring and not happy....i will be happy~~ but truly,i miss you my dear...this year christmas is my lonely christmas..but i can use this chance to going back kgau to meet up my frens.. i will be missing you my dear...

i miss you too much!~